CLOUD 9

Hahh. Now she ultimately has something to write about. It's been so longgg that I haven't posted anything. Today,I'm in a cloud 9. Hee. Why?? Why?? Why??

Because :

1) the so called *crush* finally approved me and we had a little chit chat on FB.

2) I was called in for an interview with HSBC for my internship.

3) I spent 5o buck$ for Forever 21 thingy & a pair of Vincci shoes. Myr 50! (envy me).

Well, there's a 'shoes war' in Vincci at Fahrenheit 88 today. What a world! It's year end sale peeps.

p/s : in gloomy mood too. my uni mate just passed away due to stomach system failure. she went through 5 operations & unfortunately,she cant's make it. RIP Diyana Azmina. You'll always be remembered. :'(

*The Blind Side*

It's 2 a.m. in the morning & Syaz is already on bed,covered up by blanket from head to toe (jealous much) while I'm still awake,trying hard to finish up the journal plus the bla bla bla thingy for The Blind Side movie. We were asked to do an assignment by watching The Blind Side with group mates. Isn't it fun?? Your assignment is actually to watch a movie! :)

Ohh btw, have you watched this movie?? If you don't, then it's your loss. HAHA. They have won many awards peeps!! Perhaps cuz Sandra Bullock starred in this movie. Errr. Nvm.

You can get my assurance that it's a must watch movie. *pfftt*. To be honest, I'm not so into this movie (how many times did I have mentioned "this movie"? Can you count?? ). From the beginning til the end,I'm still waiting for the climax or should I say 'the memorable part'.

Waiting and waiting and waiting. Tadaaa!! None. There's no part that give me a deep impact or at least, a welling rheum. Urghhh. Not like what we expected. However, there are loads of values and lessons that able to motivate us as the students to thrive just like Michael Oher.

Who is Michael Oher????? Download (a legal one) & watch! No regrets. :)

p/s : continuing watching The Blind Side.

TO THE MOON & BACK

Hey h0! (I guess I never say Hi whenever I start writing the entry). Okayy,Hye :)

This is not an updated blog cuz Im so nottttt notttt diligent to write. Oh fingers licking good,can you please dont stop typing?? Please!! You're gonna write a journal every week. I mean EVERY WEEK! *sigh*

Yah,I've authorized to write a journal regarding international issue. No clue what would be the issue. While wondering,I can feel myself floating to the moon & back to the earth with still a blank answer. hmmm.

It's there. It's there & suddenly..... gone! haishh. *ting* browsing through 1 of the pics of my classmate. *tskk tskk tskk*. crying over an awes0me couple. Why Im still singleeeeeeee??? 0hh,forgot. Im NOT that pretty!No rush kan Jastina *huhh* Im happy for my friends who have found their Mr.Right. Untung laa. In romance but studies still their top priority. *salute* :)

Listening to my Experia X10 mini, I FEEL GOOD. But but,arghhhhhhh! What Im gonna write huh? Im thinking 0f Journalists' Safety. U know,recently there's a Malaysian journalist died in Somalia. It's a hot issue for the past few weeks. RIP Allahyarham Noramfaizul Mohd Nor. Is this issue cool? It's a free writing,so Im gonna write & engrave what I feel like doing. FULLSTOP.

Okayy,I'll have to squeeze my brain for a fantastic yet dandy ideas. Anyone?? pfftt. :p

WORK

Bob Marley sings :

We, Jah people, can make it work;
Come together and make it work, yeah!
We can make it work;
We can make it work.

Five days to go: working for the next day;
Four days to go: working for the next day;
Say we got: three days to go now:
working for the next day;
Two days to go (ooh): working
for the next day, yeah.
Say we got: one day to go: working for the -
Every day is work - work - work - work!

Yah,I need to work my ass off this semester break! We'll be on trip this November to Korea & it's not that damn cheap gizmo. At least, again I repeat, at least, yah at least I need to have 4000 in my account, I mean MYR4000,not in rupiah okayy.

Signing up with Jobstreet is much helping. The jobs come to us darling by clicking the APPLY button. I received so many calls but only attended 1 interview so far. The 1st interview, DONE! It went well,plus with my mom's existence. She was so energized to accompany me. Though,I didn't prepare well for this interview,I was acting like I know everything. Yes confident is extremely important & I was confident! :)

Then, I cleared up my mind,thought I was never to be called again for the 2nd interview cuz I thought I didn't do well in the first interview. BUT,

Today, I was called in for the 2nd interview. OH MY GUCCI! The 2nd interview will be at the boardroom filled with the managerS. Certainly, I'll be attacked. It's a 4 hours interview people. What I'm gonna say?? dushhh. Me found dead!

As I received the call,I went straight away to KLCC & get a sleeve & a pant. Huhh

p/s: super duper nerve wracking right now!

THAT'S WHAT YOU GET

Now,I'm done talking about sections,cases & all the principles of law. Yes!

I was terrible at answering the law paper. If I manage to pass,I'll be so so so damn glad. But,what if I dont?? Do I need to face him(Mr.M) again? Yes,sure will cuz he's the only law lecturer & he'll be taking 4 classes for the next semester. Erkk.. What-a-va.

Im s**k at memorizing facts man! duhh. ANTS in my belly?? Uncountable! No doubt why I'm a forgetful person but at least i remember my mom & dad's phone number. In case of emergency man. (see,persons you always look for when you're in double trouble) :)

p/s : Do appreciate your parents and and your law knowledge. ;)

IF I AIN'T GOT YOU

Previously, I thought if I ain't got him, I'll wait.

But,I think the signs are clear now. I'm officially taking a step forward & will say, GOODBYE 'CRUSH'! Tsk tsk tsk :'(

Almost in tears(I already did actually). But,what I remember the most is my supportive friend's quote; "no man is worth ur tears, n when u find the one who is, he will never make u cry". Thanks Izee. Another quote that I think is outstanding from Super Syaza; "To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure. But, risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing".

THANK GOD I found these people!! :)

p/s: Listening to Hush Hush by PussycatDoll. *there's no other way,I get the final say* lalalala

There'll be no BLURRY part 2! Im done writing about the 'date' with him. But,why the entry entitled 'blurry'?

Reasons:
I've been waiting for him for almost 3 years since we knew each other. It wasn't that easy! Every second counts & accompanied with patience & hope. Why it took me so long?? ohh yah,I forgot he never been honest with his feeling towards me & I even had this ambiguous feeling. The way he treated me was completely different from before. But,he never clarified anything. That's the question that kept on playing on my mind. He never say NEVER(borrowed from JB) when I asked him out. Again,I wondered & pondered.

3 thoughts:
1) He was just being NICE to me
2) He has an equal treat over other girls
3) He was really into me

That's why I'm always in BLURRY when it comes to this.

BLURRY

Before....

Me :
Do you wanna have a date with me & watch Xmen:First Class?

Jane Doe:
No problem. When?

Me:
What about on 4th June?

Jane Doe:
Im going down to M..... on 4th, got a friend's engagement ceremony.Do you wanna come down to S....? Or maybe we can have a date on 5th.

Me:
(Did you just said a DATE? Wohoooo.Whispering to myself).Then Sunday it is. Catch you later. Bla bla bla.....

SUNDAY JUNE 5,2011 (2nd date)

12p.m.
Arrived in S...... He's just about to get a bathe. Urghh. But the waiting was truly paid off, he smelled olalala(I was really into the wild :p)once he got into the car. Took off & again he drove all the way to Damansara(he did the same when we first went out).


1p.m.
Parked at The Curve & searched for Cathay Cineplex. It was our first time there & we got lost like in Bermuda Triangle. Damn! We're already in sweat(why Malaysia is too hot??) & yet still searching for Cathay Cineplex. I called a friend & asked the security guard. I felt like I was on marathon for Jacob's walk of life while heading to Cathay. Yah,I know Im bestowed short legs but at least I can walk with my own legs. :p It was a long queue when we got there. It's normal to see millions of people on Sunday. We planned to watch Xmen at 1.25p.m. but the ticket was sold out. The guy asked us whether to have couple seats or normal seats. We're speechless! Only the couple seats left that afar from the screen for the 3.25p.m. show. Couple seats then!


1.50p.m.
We headed to One Utama to grab our meal for lunch. It was my pleasure to have lunch at delicious cuz it's really delicious,scrumptious & luscious. Try it!

My meal : Smoked Salmon with Sour Cream & Capers RM24.90


His meal : I forgot the name,but Im sure it's pasta. ;)

to be continued....

STRANDED

Yeap, I'm stranded here! (but not with Jennifer Paige)

The final exam result just released & sent through my email. As I clicked the inbox button, my heart was pumping & pounding like I was gasping for air. I even had an adrenalin rush man. Luckily I didnt sweat. Huhh. Dup-dup-dup-dup.

Tadaaa.

Seemed like I love to keep that Bs on my result. Pfftt. What a game?? Yeah, I did improving from the last semester but yet it wasnt enough. Never enough!

I'm still not satisfied with my result. I thought I had done my very best but I overlooked something (missed the 5times pray & less effort perhaps) that blocked me from getting a superb result just like my classmates. Almost half of the class got Dean's List. They'll be on stage next semester's dinner. Hmm. Im so so so PROUD with them,all their hard work paid off.

However, I thank to my one & only Almighty,all lecturers & my supportive friends for helping me to get this far. Im relieved that I passed all the subjects! wohoooo. Erk...

There's one more. Law paper! Im taking an intersession & it's Law subject. One more burden to be released this Thursday. Have to do well in order to upgrade my CGPA. Im looking forward to it! :)

LEFT OUTSIDE ALONE

Well, Anastacia was right!
(How it really feels to be left outside alone...)

As time goes by, I thought I can bear it but the truth is that I cant. Living and growing with someone that is much much better than me makes me feel suck & a complete LOSER.


I ignore the feeling of jealousy in the first place but I tend to take it seriously later. You cant take it every single day. Can you?? Too many downs instead of ups. She is way better than me! No wonder people surround her really love her. She's like the spotlight.

Proofs:
-Cant play well?? There's always a person teaches her h0w to play.
-Cant find a mate?? There is always a person finds her a mate.
-Dont know with whom to dine?? There's always people ask her out.
-Confuse in studies?? There's always people to teach her.
-Alone & bored?? There's always people accompany her.
-What's more???? Too many to be listed here.

Sometimes I feel so left out & isolated. People normally say that they forget of her existence but the fact is that IM THE ONE WHO'S INVISIBLE HERE! Everyone will talk about her. I dont blame her for being PERFECT. Never. But i do regret to NOT have of what she owns. Hmmmm. She got everything,everything. Family,Friends,Beauty,Intelligent brain,Good-hearted. We are so different. Do I have to turn myself & be like her so that everybody will acknowledge my existence???